...a breif essay on understanding the BLUE

maybe just another type of pain

a bit more subtle

a little underneath

the barriers and walls

yet it all seems so similar

maybe just another kind of loss not so easy to see

that these bright lights and large sights

have blinded me

outstretched, out of reach, out of time, out of money

and the shame remains the same

i've raged holes through walls with no sound

with no feeling

another sedation into another escape

and i find myself sick

and ready for change